hold me in ur arms never let me go
im gonna change for e better..so irritated n feeling sucky wif myself.
-im sorry god-
i din mean to b rude..
i din mean to b cold..
i din mean to b distant..
i din mean it*screams*

huhz!! haiya~ i cant do anything bout it, can i?
i just dono wad to do..
=sighs=
only to wait n leave it in gods hands..

parents not hapi wif mi..im rude..its my fault quarreling wif rach..my maths suck..x(
n still more to come..

[ d a z e d // s t o n e d // j a d e d ]

oh wells i shall not think bout it!! i shant!! hmmphz..i shant ok!!!
-punch myself-
hahs.

okies feel much better..
*smiles at god*
it feels so good to just pour out my feelings to him n tok to him...he is my best fren!!

8:00 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

oh raahh. i just went on to see ur template and realised..
everything's gone?
hhaa. okay. lets do the punching fitness tog!
put the links up there again laa!
byebye.

11:57 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

hullo! im at lene s hse now..whoos
yea har i got back my results n they suck..but i thank god i oni failed my a maths.hahs.thankew god.

oh we had walkathon today n it ewas so fun..surely one laa..but it din rain.oh n did u noe..[katie n orbie] we it rain yeast at e sports heats..hah n i din go skoo coz i overslept..aiya i veri tired laa!!!
not my fault k..x)i stink.
lene juz said is dat wad i c..yes it is..
i juz ate her mums cookies..nice..but no more areadi.im stinky baby! ahh help mi!!!
ohh i haf made a decision. to lose wait weight!!! im so fed up..i cant fit into e skirt my mum bought for mi*hmmphz* but i shall lose weight yes i will n i shall!!!!!!
-determined face-



ohhs lalalas.
i din noe festival of praise was hills..so goondus..i want go!! ask stef n phoebs..oh ya she ask mi to sms her..
*arhll* i reali stinkl..


i ll neva break ur heart..
=i just got pulled away..=
hahas.lene went spastic..she s shakin my chair..


okies laa im done.. byes.

2:11 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

ahhs..
i dono y but theres no pic..huhz..nvm
whoos!!!! exams are over..
buit stupid la..my results suck..
amaths-30/80..plus my ca i die liao..
emaths-60/80..i thank god
chem-57/100..hmmx mayb plus ca will pul up abit..
chi-68.5/120..overall is 57..with compo..ahhs..plus ca i die liao..
=sighs=
thankew god i oni failed one..so far..
beta go down
byes..

8:27 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

sighs-
feel so goondu..today eng paper @ 11pm but i went skoo earlier..thot i late n took taxi sumore..ahrll*
wasted my money..
oh wells..
my body ache..n i feel so slpy n tired..my eyes are gettin smaller..oh noo!!
-hahs-
need go study la youu..

Worlds Apart
I am the only one to blame for this
Somehow it all adds up the same
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I flew too high and like Icarus I collide
With a world I try so hard to leave behind
To rid myself of all but love
to give and die

To turn away and not become
Another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves
more deeply than the oceans,
more abundant than the tear
Of a world embracing every heartache

Can I be the one to sacrifice
Or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow

To love you - take my world apart
To need you - I am on my knees
To love you - take my world apart
To need you - broken on my knees

All said and done I stand alone
Amongst remains of a life I should not own
It takes all I am to believe
In the mercy that covers me

Did you really have to die for me?
All I am for all you are
Because what I need and what I believe are worlds apart

Additional lyrics:

I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
and wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
More and more I need you now,
I owe you more each passing hour
the battle between grace and pride
I gave up not so long ago
So steal my heart and take the pain
and wash the feet and cleanse my pride
take the selfish, take the weak,
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
the sin-soaked heart and make it yours
take my world all apart
take it now, take it now
and serve the ones that I despise
speak the words I can't deny
watch the world I used to love
fall to dust and thrown away
I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
so wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
so steal my heart and take the pain
take the selfish, take the weak
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
take my world apart, take my world apart
I pray, I pray, I pray
take my world apart


ohh..so long..dis song rox!
okiez betta study..
sighs*yawnz
-drags myself away-

9:51 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

whoos!!! hahs.
im so tired n dazed out rite now..exams!!
*screams*
oh wells..i shall lean on god n rest in his shelter..to dwell in e hse of e most high..=grins=
im so irritated wif myself..keep fallin aslp wif e lite on n when im supp to study..thank god im almost..almost donewith chem n sobz..geog still left dono hw mani kjfdvbkfdv pages..
but i shall not b down wif studies man...i shall b up up up and away~
hahas...monday chem n ss..whoo i shall b e ss courageous n sail away..*im sori god..but i wun crash..
oh.n its all charlenes fault..i now kp tokin to my self huh! hahas..so funi went mad e other time..oh.n badminton rocks!! whoo its truly a spastic time..hahz..oh ya..no scanner..cant show mi n lene tk e foto e other time..hahs..i went spastic..*hmmphz!
n my baby fotos rock! hahs last time so pretty one huhz..-sighs- i will slim down!-determined look-
oh ya n im supp to say dis.."ynnig" ah..i shall not say her real name..she touched my left cheek butt..or izit e rite? oh aniwaes...huhx!!hahas..but we were lafin bout it..
arll k i gtg!=vrooms= drives off my porche!

8:31 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

=pauses=
screams!!
ahh!!!! stupid..sumone or dono wad ting deleted all my testimonials..*sobz* so ppl pls help mi rite agn..please thankew..:)) im sori 4 e trouble laa..
whooS..hehx..
iloveyoujesus!!
thankew [lord] for always being there for mi..
you r my shieldmystrenghtmyportiondeliverer
.hahs.
okiez ill get serious..
last sunday has been a veri impt n memorable time man..oh i mean sat..*oops..
ahhs..so nice to hug my brother!!!i love you joel koh! so strong n solid down there*hahs*n it felt real gd to jux cry into his arms..whoos.i feel so much happier!
*turns spastic n starts jumpin arn*
ow..i bangd myself..huh! x)
u noe i went mad in my room on sun nite..hahs..heard u haf turnd my mournin into dancin..n i started jumping n goin mad!! yea harx!oohs..n i fasted dis wk..
-sighs-
which reminds mi..
my wallet got stolen!!!!! arhll!!!
im super pissd by e damn sucker! whoever it is sucks!
:(im sorry god.
-sighstheface-
it had 120 bucks...n its to pay ppl..hai

my god is b i g
so [strong]
so [mighty]
my god is so //good//
hes so //good// to me

and ill trust in him n hope dat ill get my money back..im still hoping..izit bein goonduz?-frowns-
i just need it laa..*grumps*
well no point cryin over it agn..i haf prayed to god n hell answer them..

he will provide for me..provide for me yeah

.hahs.laughs..
its the song dat cracks me up..*oohs crack*
hahas..lene n i were lafin bout it e other time..hees..


excellent worshippers need to be steadfast.firm.constant.reliable and [i m m o v a b l e]
ohhs i wun be tossd arn by e things in life..-wind blows mi away-
whoos..yes i wun..im gonna be
someone who stands on e strength oh e [word of god]
live a life dat radiates [gods glory]
live a radical life for [christ]
whoo im radiatin..-glows-
.hees.
n be a radical worshipper who is sold out for the kingdom of [god] and n o t for my own agendas n motives!!
whoos
.hahs.im goin mad..yeah man*screams*
mad for christ.yea yea yea..
hees:)))))


[friday.30thapril]
oohs e aircon leaked..n it spitted out water..irritatin i tell you..
ooh i ate at popeyes today..hah my first time man! so fun..went wif lene n we went mad.. oh yas.. we took neoprint on..thurs i tink.hahs so fun.. but i tell you..im not photogenic-hmmphs- n i look spasstic in e fotos..heh..[not fair..whines]
-let passion be the fuel dat drives you to be who u r and what u do in life..
yes god i will be passionate!!! arhax..
ohh i love dis:

even a long, dangerous journey can be faced confidently when g o d is leading the expedition

yeah man..be it in the storms or the raging seas..god is there to lead us n lift us up in due time
*looks to god n smiles*
so i shall lift my life n worries..everything laa to god..`specially my wallet...
uh huhz..
''excuse me? but i would like to do something for the lord. if you could possibly use me, feel free.''
whoos!!

use me jesus use me
take this life of mine n use me
use me jesus use me
keep me by your side and use me

all i want is to be with you
to be with you n to serve you faithfully
help me lord to know your ways
help me lord each day

this was taken fm the donut man..hahs..ey. it s nice ok!
-grumps the grumps-
ltr goin ecp..so fun..hope ill go mad then..veri sad ok..ginny cant come..huhz!!at nite got tuition..bothers..
=stretches= yawnx..
arhll..
okiex..byes
-scoots off stretchin-

8:00 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

shout it out (:

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